Jan
4
2011

So many stages of “dealing” with the news that you are mentally ill. So many times you try to work a deal with yourself, with some judging source of which you have absolutely no control over. This is “your” life after all.
Then it comes down to exhaustion. You get tired of fighting it. You get tired of “acting” normal. You start to let go, until those magic little words.
“You need to accept that you will likely be on medication for the rest of your life”. You want your life back don’t you?
My problem with this statement is that they never seem to work on the other elements that bring you to this point. Like your current life! How about we start there.
In short, I wonder why we are so quick to medicate, but so slow to look at the world as a whole and its effect on the human body. The shear fact that the world speeds up, but the mind never evolves quickly enough. We unravel…
I think the human body can adapt and cope with a certain amount of stress. I believe that is a finite limit.
So, doc… how about we find out what is making us all crazy. Sure, it doesn’t sell pills, but you can get high off “good will” and your hippocratic oath.
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Dec
14
2010

I was reading an article tonight on Alternet that I found extremely educational and enlightening. I recommend that people take the time and read this. It really explains what it is like to live in the head of a mentally ill individual.
I have type I schizophrenia, depersonalization disorder, and complex PTSD. Want some fries with that?
When most people hear the word “schizophrenia,” the image that runs through their minds is that of a homeless person, unwashed and gaunt, rambling the streets muttering to him- or herself, occasionally breaking out in screams and seemingly random flailing. I confess, there are days when I do feel like doing exactly that. However, the majority of people with schizophrenia are, in fact, functioning members of society. We just need a little help. We are not violent. We are not stupid. We merely have some malfunctions going on upstairs.
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I have type I schizophrenia, depersonalization disorder, and complex PTSD. Want some fries with that?
When most people hear the word “schizophrenia,” the image that runs through their minds is that of a homeless person, unwashed and gaunt, rambling the streets muttering to him- or herself, occasionally breaking out in screams and seemingly random flailing. I confess, there are days when I do feel like doing exactly that. However, the majority of people with schizophrenia are, in fact, functioning members of society. We just need a little help. We are not violent. We are not stupid. We merely have some malfunctions going on upstairs.
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Dec
13
2010
Go to the command-prompt and query the service (e.g. the SMTP service) by using sc:sc queryex w3svc
This will give you the following information:SERVICE_NAME:
w3svc
TYPE : 20 WIN32_SHARE_PROCESS
STATE : 4 RUNNING
(STOPPABLE, PAUSABLE, ACCEPTS_SHUTDOWN)
WIN32_EXIT_CODE : 0 (0×0)
SERVICE_EXIT_CODE : 0 (0×0)
CHECKPOINT : 0×0
WAIT_HINT : 0×0
PID : 321
FLAGS :
or something like this (the “state” will mention stopping).
Over here you can find the process identifier (PID), so it’s pretty easy to kill the associated process either by using the task manager or by using taskkill:taskkill /PID 321 /F
where the /F flag is needed to force the process kill
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